Lights

I realize this is my first blog of the New Year. Twenty-Ten. But, also, it is the birthday of my Aunt that passed away last summer. There are a lot of thoughts rattling around my head today. And, a sadness of the loss of such a wonderful person. Then, I thought about how lucky I was to know her. Anyone that met her, loved her. It was impossible not to fall under her spell. She was a very giving, lovable person that was so full of life. I was honored to know her and feel lucky that she "will always walk beside me" <---her words in the last email I got from her.

Aside from the few tears that I shed today, I feel like I'm ready for that next chapter. The ground has been shaken beneath me for such a long time. I've had my tragedy. My little protective bubble that I lived in for such a long time has burst. Now, as I try to find a new solid ground to walk on, I pause. I'm admittedly a bit scared. Scared of failing. I've have lived my life with a safety net. That net is gone. It's all on me now. Much to ponder. Much to still figure out. But, I know I have some amazing people walking beside me that have taught me great things along the way. I'm ready for whatever is next....

When thinking about my aunt and others that have gone away, I'm reminded of lyrics in a song that I like. The song is by Daniel Powter called "Love You Lately". I love music and lyrics.

I hope you've found,
Whatever you've been looking for.
Just remember where your from
And who you are.

Cause there's a thousand lights,
That make you feel brand new,
But if you ever loose your way,
I'll leave one on for you.

As I embark on my new journey this new year filled with looks of fear, I take all my memories with me. Whatever and where ever I go, I don't want to forget who I am and all the amazing people that helped mold me into the person I've become. Not just those loved ones that have gone, but also all the friends and family are a part of my life now.

Wow, kind of a deep blog to start off 2010. But, you know, that's how I roll now. The new version of Kim. Kind of like Kim 2.0. I had to put a little cheese in this post, right? Hey, I'm still me.

Go listen to that song. Great song. Wishing each of you the best year for you and your family. Wishing you all the happiness, smiles and laughter that life can bring.

;0)